Finding Hope in the Midst of Tragedy

Tragedy affects all of us at some point in our lives. Sometimes we feel isolated in our struggle. But we are never alone. There are loved ones, friends, or resources to help those grieving from a loss. It can feel like the end of the world at the time, but it does not have to be for you.

When I lost my grandmother in 2010, I could not comprehend what happened. As she laid in a hospital bed, I held her hand, not knowing that would be the last time I would see her. I sat in the waiting room while the rest of my family was saying their last goodbyes. I could not be in the hospital room because I do not like to see someone die. I wanted to remember her when she was alive. I put my feelings of grief into my writing. For me, writing is therapeutic.

This is a poem I wrote and shared at my grandmother's funeral.

"Sitting in a waiting room.
Trapped in a four sided space.
Waiting on the results.
Looking through a magazine.
Trying to put my mind in another place, but all I can think about is you.
As time passes by, I still remain in the waiting room.
Day turns to night.
Lights are turned off, but the lamps are still lit.
As I sit in a dark room, I look at the empty seats that are lit by the lamps.
I think of you.
I think of all the times we spent together.
All the memories we made together.
I could not imagine my life without you.
The results are back.
Tears are everywhere.
I am in shock.
I cannot believe she is gone.
This must be a dream.
This must be a dream.
How can this happen?
Get me out of this dream!
I cannot get out.
If only I could hug you again and tell you how much you mean to me.
God knew the circumstances and released you from your pain.
God has brought you home to heaven."

I believe death is not final. I know my grandmother is looking down on me from heaven. I can feel her presence everywhere I go.

Hope is having the push to live each day to its fullest. When we have hope, our life is in bloom like a flower that opens after a tough winter. 

Be thankful for the memories you have with your loved ones and friends.

Life is short, so enjoy every experience you have in this life.